Enough

Enough, tortured soul
Enough torment,
Enough striving,
Enough pushing,
Enough crying.

Enough trying to swallow the world,
trying to taste every experience there is,
Enough trying to make us laugh,
to please and delight every soul.

Enough frantic activity
never letting yourself rest,
Enough secret weeping
shredding your soul for love

Enough alcohol
Enough drugs
Enough sex
Enough heart attacks

Take your quiet bed
in the eternal silence
Rest at last,
as you havent for sixty years,
Enjoy finally,
the strange alien balm
of no longer being.

You've done enough. You deserve it

Our tears and regrets are nothing,
clamouring proof,
you've done enough.

The best defence

... for Kim

your photos show me
Nodachi, wakizashi,
falchions,
rapiers to rend the eye
beauty to carve up the mind
and let libido fall like fat medallions

and your words give
smashed steel,
fractured plate,
imperfect armour
wounds welling tears
a clean pure heart uncased

Sliding

How many tears
trembling unshed
your pillow yet holds

How many moments
in the trough
digging deeper

How many ways
silent as stone
unknown and alone

The sun will warm
your skin again
your blood will fire,
your boy will smile

It looks far as fear
unreachable
but not for long.