Two: Followers

 “With all the unfaithful offspring of the sky gods, with my litter mates who find a rich wallow in multi-species muddles, I want to make a critical and joyful fuss about these matters.

I want to stay with the trouble, and the only way I know to do that is in generative joy, terror, and collective thinking. My first familiar in this task will be a spider, Pimoa cthulhu, who lives under stumps in the redwood forests of Sonoma and Mendocino Counties, near where I live in North Central California.

Nobody lives everywhere; everybody lives somewhere. Nothing is connected to everything; everything is connected to something. This spider is in place, has a place, and yet is named for intriguing travels elsewhere. This spider will help me with returns, and with roots and routes.

The chthonic powers of Terra infuse its tissues everywhere, despite the civilizing efforts of the agents of sky gods to astralize them and set up chief Singletons and their tame committees of multiples or subgods, the One and the Many. I propose a name for an elsewhere and elsewhen that was, still is, and might yet be: the Chthulucene.

I remember that tentacle comes from the Latin tentaculum, meaning “feeler,” and tentare, meaning “to feel” and “to try”; and I know that my leggy spider has many-armed allies. Myriad tentacles will be needed to tell the story of the Chthulucene.”

Words from her daughter’s anthropology homework. Chthulucene. How apt. How dryly, how sardonically, and how evilly right.

(with Kora Vee)

Two: Emergence

 Three knots in a rope ago, the tapestry of time came, comes, will come unravelled, unravelling.

The change was, is, will be both sudden and slow, more the cracking of a window than the spread of of a plague.

First, next, later, before, there is an impact, a crash, a buckling.Then, next, before, later cracks shoot, raced, forth from the crater like sprouts through pavement, irrevocable lightning fast. Then, before that, subsequent, finally, the glass pane falls, fell, will fall through.

Back when words like “then” had meaning.

The past tense no longer exists. No longer exists, will exist, has ever existed.

It is still spoken of, written with, to try to ascribe some sense to it. Numb hands grapple at the ravelling tapestry of Time, trying to seize, knot, repair. The world turns on the hinge of time--or at least it is used to. Entropy gives direction to the universe. One can distinguish the past from the future by the simple gesture of dropped-and-shattered pottery. Universally, uniformly, what is broken lies still and cannot come back together. There is a before-break, a break, and an after-break. Direction. A direct line of cause to effect.

Now, that line has become a circle, a mocking figure eight. Nothing ever stops because now it’s simultaneous. Now is unfathomable. Then is unimaginable. Tomorrow is yesterday is today.

(with Kora Vee)

One: Awakenings

 The woman is walking. She is also falling. She is also being born, learning to walk, hitting her first baseball, fighting her first cold, dating her first boyfriend, failing her first test, skating across ice, eating greasy pizza, molding a clay pot, laughing in the sunlight, twitching and gagging as she loses gouts and sputters of blood from a dime-sized hole in her throat.

All these images have collapsed and unified, her life transported boiled into one unending strip. Always the pain of birth and always the pain of death and once it began, once it suddenly began, it had never not been. Once it started it had always been.

It all happens, happened, will happen at once.

It is a terrible way to never die.

* * * * *

I, I, I, I can breathe. 

I can see. I can feel, slow sun on my outstretched legs.

I have LEGS! 

How long, how long in the void? I can twist and feel, and stand, and twirl. I can feel cotton brushing my thighs when I do.

Welladay, if it's time to try the Great Dance again, find the threads of fate, I have legs to dance with, and time to breathe in and taste, and smell.

Everything is so bright and strong. There's a click from behind me, and soft sweet horns start crawling across the air, pulling me into slow, graceful steps, turning.

"How high the moon"

(with Kora Vee)

Two: Slipping between your palms

 She sits on the cliff face, dangling her legs

Sea spumes up to tickle her soles, her soul, while the cables in the distance fray and splay, tipping suspended roadbeds into the brine, cars splashing with them.

She laughs, and coils her hands in the long strands of necklace, twisting them back and forth, and cries again: and the bridge stands unmarred, marred, broken again.

She looks up from the page you're reading, deep into your eyes, and gives a secret smile

"You think you have time, but you dont, you dont...... only I have time, in my hands"

Can you feel the dust of ages, settling on your head?

One: On the passing of time, and other funerals

 Good, she exclaimed

portrait of woman as a figure of light

semaphore arms
signalling the micro
wave bursts inside
her excite-
ment, her lit joy
fired by fasci-
nation and sublime
sublimated
desire

Two: Wave goodbye

 A man drives his car

He bends forward over the wheel, peering into the storm of night. He strains to see through the steady chop of wipers almost keeping up with the drenching rain. The sound of them bothers him, too remorseless

He rubs his broken nose, wiping fresh blood

Three million, three fucking million, we shouldda asked double that

He checks the GPS, four more fuckin miles
then reaches blindly for the radio, punches it on, flips through stations, hearing only the ghostly bow scraping words from a broken cello

- envy the - *crackle*
- the dead - *crackle*
- dead their - *crackle*
- their swift - *crackle*
- swift passing - *crackle*
- passing for - *crackle*
- for centuries - *crackle*
-centuries you'll - *crackle*

He snarls and punches the radio, hard, and it shuts up. He rubs his nose again. 

He doesn't smell the flood of seaweed.
He doesn't hear the slow rend of iron from the trunk
He hears only the roar of surf, to his left, behind him

He doesn't feel the tentacle uncoil from behind his seat, til it passes up and wraps around his left wrist, jerking hard. 
He feels the crash of the car into deep water

He starts screaming.
He doesn't stop.
He'll never stop.